I miss him...

It's not like I can just say that I don't love him anymore. I still love him. I say he is a loser in front of my friends just so they won't bug me about it anymore, but in my head I'm saying over and over I still love him. When we broke up, he acted like he didn't care. That was what broke my heart into a thousand pieces. God damnit! I hate how I always think about him and people think it's easy to get over him, which it obviously isn't. I want him back, but at the same time, I don't. I just wish he would talk to me like a normal person. He says he hates me and I don't know now if his love was real. I know mine was. I thought I really loved him, which I did, and I still do. It's just so complicated... I don't know what to do... Somebody help me?